Winding Down
What a year. I have never been a "planner" ( I tend to be a little " Along came Polly"). This year was my year to make changes, whether I wanted to or not. I think however, I did subconsciously plan for certain changes. I knew certain things had to change, for me. Me always includes Megan. Change has been hard, no actually extremely painful. So much so I have stopped breathing at moments and some nights slept with the bible clutched to my chest to help those pangs of fear, regret & pain pass.
My plan for 09 is to make plans. I plan on putting pen to paper to make plans for Megan and me. I'm saying farewell to 08 & thanking it for all it's lessons. There have been many. I plan to be a better friend. A better listener. Less confrontational with some. More with others. Actually, I plan to embrace whatever life brings to me. I'm setting boundaries while opening new doors.
I turned 42 on Monday. This 43rd year of my life I plan to be the grown up I have always wanted to be. I'm not sure who she is altogether (though, I have a good idea)...but, I am going to have fun figuring her out. I know it's going to include cooking and some other mischief for certain. I recognize, finally, I am the editor of my own life.
Oh and by the way. I have been carded twice in two weeks AND BY WOMEN! YEY for me! Go 42!
These are the faces of happiness, hope & the future. I'm might borrow a little of what they possess.
Cassie, Sydney, Megan, & Madison New Year's Eve 2008
Happy New Year and Many More
My plan for 09 is to make plans. I plan on putting pen to paper to make plans for Megan and me. I'm saying farewell to 08 & thanking it for all it's lessons. There have been many. I plan to be a better friend. A better listener. Less confrontational with some. More with others. Actually, I plan to embrace whatever life brings to me. I'm setting boundaries while opening new doors.
I turned 42 on Monday. This 43rd year of my life I plan to be the grown up I have always wanted to be. I'm not sure who she is altogether (though, I have a good idea)...but, I am going to have fun figuring her out. I know it's going to include cooking and some other mischief for certain. I recognize, finally, I am the editor of my own life.
Oh and by the way. I have been carded twice in two weeks AND BY WOMEN! YEY for me! Go 42!
These are the faces of happiness, hope & the future. I'm might borrow a little of what they possess.
Cassie, Sydney, Megan, & Madison New Year's Eve 2008
Happy New Year and Many More
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right now i'm going back to my new years day wine :)